INCREASE-DECREASE

It was awesome. I really got to JUST spend time with fam and friends, without having to do any shows or anything like that. I didn’t even hang out anywhere heavily populated. Just really shared quality…QUALITY time.
Though the majority of the trip was pleasantries one thing that all of my friends and fam addressed was that I look and seem so tired, and so pensive. Like my mind is cluttered. I explained that I’ve been a bit restless lately. I can’t figure out what it is, but I just feel like I don’t belong anywhere, but instead…everywhere. And that I don’t really wanna do anything, but instead…everything. And though that sounds cool, and presents an opportunity for the easy response “you cannnn do everything,” the truth is, it aint that simple. It’s actually a bit torturous. It feels like I’m caring six cupsof water in two hands, and I’m carrying them pretty well, but its gonna take a lot of time, patience and planning to get them where they need to go without spilling any water from them.

Not sure if this makes any sense. Just sharing.

Nonetheless, I am who I am. And what I am. And what that is, is young. And insane. And whether or not anyone understands it, i have to be okay with it. At least that’s what mama said.